If you were a member of the Titanic....

Rarely do I have dreams to reveal things about my life and such, but last night I think I got close to that status.  I dreamt that I was in the time of famous Titanic.  The interesting thing was that I was a time traveler.  Meaning, though I was in the 1900's I was clearly from 2012.  The other very distinct thing was though I was most definitely Katie Ludlow.  I was also Rose from the Titanic.  This is where it gets slightly confusing and complicated.  I knew that I was not going to make it off of the Titanic, even though Rose survived.  And the main reason was that I didn't have a "Jack" in this time of Titanic.  I had no one who loved me SOOO much that they would do anything to make me survive.  The sad thing is that i made this realization before I even boarded the Titanic.   Because of this fact, I had to do a lot.  (Cue though provoking parallels to my life)  I had to finish my one class, so I could "graduate" college.  This is very clear to it's meaning.  I am so incredibly nervous that I will not graduate because of one reason or the other, but mostly that I will fail this one class I am in.  I also had to make sure I contacted all my family.  This is fairly obvious to it's meaning, but it does reassure me that if I was ever in the situation that I may not see these people on earth again, that they love me despite anything.  Finally it goes back to my Jack predicament.  There were several guys in my dream that I think were suppose to fulfill that role, but none of them stuck to it.  I feel like it reflected how I don't feel like any man will be able to love me for what I am.  That I am an amazing friend, which only goes to a point.  Maybe this is too deep of  a reading of a simple dream, but it was interesting to think about.

"I cannot imagine any condition which would cause a ship to founder. I cannot conceive of any vital disaster happening to this vessel. Modern ship building has gone beyond that." ~Captain Smith Titanic